Why does being sick come with so much guilt?

Excuse the lowkey rant.

I always get scared to post of these in case someone from my store sees it but i’m honestly conflicted. These past two days my health has been on the floor, but I still showed up to my shifts. I left early both days making sure I had coverage & that I could use my sick time. Had I not been granted the means to leave early I would’ve never left & I honestly would’ve just tried my best to push through.

Hours before my shift today I had a fever, but since I was opening I didn’t see many options. I thought I was going through allergies but a fever didn’t make sense with that so I let my store manager know & they had to come in to replace me. When they did come in they told me that I need to think about rather or not this job is for me & that it’s starting to be a time & attendance issue. I understand that me being under the weather has been an inconvenience to my team which I already carry guilt for, but to also feel like my job is on the line made me regret trying to take time to feel better. I wish that I could go back & just suck it up even if it meant feeling worse than I already do physically. I love this job so much & it constantly feels like I can lose it at any second over things that I can’t control 🫤