I think im addicted to masturbating and it could be affecting my sex life.

I’m a female (almost 30) and I’ve always masturbated from a super early age - probably due to inappropriate introduction to sex very early on in life.

Anyway, I literally masturbate every. Single. Day. For hours. I will be running late to work and somehow convince myself to use my vibrator for 5 mins and orgasm and then rush out the door even if I’m late.

If I have nothing to do at home, I will masturbate for literally hours (2-3+ and have COUNTLESS orgasms).

I can’t always be busy 24/7 and sometimes I enjoy just lounging around and relaxing. Unfortunately this is when I get the idea to masturbate and I won’t stop for hours if I don’t have to.

The things I think about are really taboo as well, so it’s not something I really roleplay or engage with in any of my past or current relationships. But I can get off so easily when I masturbate by myself. But during sex, it can be really hard to get me to orgasm at times. I can only orgasm if I rub myself (or if I’m lazy I can use the vibrator on myself but not necessary), but I can’t orgasm by him touching me, me riding him etc. it has to be in the way that I masturbate.

I have sex almost every single day. I would say 5x days a week on average - some of those days being 2x a day. Most of my sex sessions are kind of long, at least 30mins, up to 2 hours. Sometimes they’re quickies but pretty rare. I don’t always orgasm when I have sex, but I’m never turning it down and I love having sex. It’s possible it’s still the ‘honeymoon’ phase of our relationship, it’ll be 1 year in April. So I don’t know if it’ll slow down.

Even though I have sex at least 5 days a week, some days being 2 long sessions, I still masturbate when I am home alone. I could have just had a 2 hour sex session, and a few hours later I’ll masturbate with my vibrator.

It’s not even that im horny when I masturbate which is also an issue because I feel like it’s training my brain that I don’t need to be horny to have sex / masturbate and im still addicted to it…

It’s like eating when you’re not hungry bc it tastes good VS eating when you are hungry and being satisfied when you are done until you’re hungry again.

I’m basically the first one: I will eat even though I’m not hungry because it tastes good, so I technically never feel REAL hunger because I’m ALWAYS eating small portions of food ALL day long. Not feeling hunger = not being as in-tune with my body and my needs. Getting used to eating bc It tastes good could Lead to obesity or the inability to enjoy a full meal because I’m never hungry.

That’s basically the best way to explain my masturbation issue in a different perspective.

Should I quit masturbating? Or what’s the solution.

I think I’m ready to prioritize a change because I want to enjoy my sex life more and I feel like I’m showing up half full to a 5 star restaurant (another cheesy analogy but you know what I mean).

To add onto this post: I never really considered that I could actually be addicted. I think it was only recently when I realized I could be/ this could be a real thing. I’m also like just… I go through ‘waves’ of being horny like alllll the time or wanting to be horny all the time, and then waves of being ‘normal’ / not turned on.

Like example, this sounds terrible, but I like getting massages - I mean I do enjoy massages for therapeutic reasons because I stand and sit a lot for my job, but I also go with the thought of that I will get wet during the massage (I’ve NEVER acted inappropriately) but just knowing that turns me on. Or like specifically choosing a male obgyn bc that’s another ‘opp’ for me to get turned on even though I act very appropriately and doctors aren’t very sexy but to me that turns me on even more sometimes.

I just have these ups and downs where I just get so horny I try to incorporate as much ‘sexual stuff n’ in my life even if I’m the only one who knows about it and I never act on it. I don’t know. Does this sound like an addiction?