Doom pilled and confused

Whatever the reason, I love lovvvvvvvve having eyeballs on me, massive attention whore and I'm starting to really think I might be trans not just for attention but like actually.

The problem ? How to know if what I'm feeling is true or to get attention. Plus, I barely know who the fuck I am. Plus plus, its the worst time to be trans they might get "cleaned" soon lol Ffs this sucks.