help. not delusional just hyper fixating, uncertainty drives me insane?

this is for limerence where you don’t know how the other person feels and you can’t get an answer, so you read into things. you think they like you but most times this isn’t the case. but i was actually correct. he confirmed it. delusion was never the issue.

my problem is obsession and needing an answer, the truth. when uncertain, i play pretty much every possibility in my mind, and i choose the one that lines up the most logically, the most consistent , i eliminate possibilities with too many inconsistencies. and sometimes, this takes a lot of time. the information i need, i might not realize till later. i will think until something actually clicks. it’s actually worked. but it’s so fucking exhausting and draining. NEEDING to know. driving yourself crazy because you don’t. if you start this habit, it’s like you get stuck in a loop. it feels good to figure it out. so you just keep doing it. then it turns into, feeling like you need to know EVERYTHING. why does uncertainty drive me insane and how do i stop. how do i be okay with not knowing everything. how do i exist in peace when im uncertain. because right now, uncertainty makes me so anxious it eats me alive so the whole thing really fucked with me now i have this habit i can’t break i can’t let it go i need to relax my brain and i need to sleep i need to let it go

i am obsessed. it’s not that im delusional about him. i think the reason i like him was natural and real, not some “idea” of him often with limerence. i can’t relax, i got way too far deep into figuring it out, watching the definition of reality split in front of my eyes because i don’t have the truth. and now im stuck i just need to break the cycle and habit. i have adhd and diagnosed bipolar but idk if thats accurate.

edit: it’s like. why did this happen? okay, im going to think until i figure this out. yeah it could lead to delusions but the whole point is i need the truth. the situation was so mentally draining. because yes, what i noticed was likely true considering he confirmed it. i wasn’t imagining things. but it was filled with mixed signals, inconsistencies i got stuck on. i overthink. i could not ask him myself. it’s like forcing yourself to mind read, when we can’t. some things, we don’t know. and i am so obsessed with knowing. because if you are wrong, you’re terrified, that’s exactly what you wanted not to do but you needed an answer, so even if you’re searching for the truth it’s possible you make something up.