I don't know how to feel (TW: miscarriage)

I have just had my first period in 6 months. I fully believed in those 6 months I was pregnant (put could never get a test because my age). I have just had a period and I show all the signs of it being a miscarriage. I have probly just lost a baby. I don't know how to feel. I feel like I should be happy because i don't have to be a teen dad but on the other hand I have probly just lost a baby and that makes me feel shit to put it bluntly. I don't know weather I should be happy I have not had to give birth and grow up with a child or feel sad I have probly just lost a child.