I’m so pissed

I know a lot of people probably feel this way but I’m just so mad and have nowhere else to vent. I’m so mad that I spent 7 years of my life as a vegan and now have health issues at age 27 as a result. Kidney stone pain every single day for months now, horrible vitamin deficiencies that cause all type of weird symptoms that I’m working on simultaneously, dealing with fatigue, depression, and ptsd flare ups , all because I got locked into a cult for 7 years because of my own ignorance. This is undoubtedly the lowest point of my life so far and I owe it to that suicide mission lifestyle.

It all seemed so perfect on paper and I could have done it forever, until I physically couldn’t and realized I’ve been hurting myself in the process. Absolutely grueling.

Trying to take things day by day but it is so mentally and physically difficult. I look at my peers / friends and they’re all in normal health, meanwhile I feel horrible everyday because of the alternative lifestyle I decided to lead. End rant sorry I’m having a really hard week. An even more difficult past 4 months. I quit in mid november (started eatinf eggs) and started eating fish and dairy last month. I just want to feel okay again.