Advice on GP Needed

I am simply at a loss of how to best move forward in my current situation and am looking for advice. As we know, there is a doctor shortage and many people do not even have a gp. I however, do have a gp, but one that shows a complete lack of care to the point that my phone appointment with him today was 50 seconds. In that 50 seconds I let him know that the meds I was on gave me severe suicidal ideation (I’ve never experienced this before), and that upon stopping them it went away. He said that couldn’t possibly be the case but that he would change the meds and talk to me in two weeks before hanging up. I am left in tears almost every time I speak to him, feeling like I am not deserving of being cared for by my doctor and that I am simply an annoyance or a burden.

My current situation health wise is not good, I was diagnosed with trigeminal neuralgia this year, an extremely painful condition that I still haven’t been able to control. I also have a slew of other health issues and it just seems to be getting worse because I can’t rely on my doctor for care. I feel like I’m actively dying.

I need to have a doctor to manage these conditions, but can no longer count on the one I do have to do so. I could try to look for another one but many doctors will only consider you if you do not have a current GP, or they will only take patients that do not have complex medical needs. Two things that I do currently have.

I am scared and desperate, and I am hoping someone might have some better advice than I am able to give myself. Should I leave my doctor for a better chance to find a new one? Should I just suffer and be thankful I even have 50 seconds with a gp? Is there something I’m missing or haven’t thought of that might help?

Thank you to anyone who replies