we had that ‘hard talk’ about our sex life
First and foremost, please don’t send me DMs asking for a meet cute or quick fuck. Loyal ako sa jowa ko, di ko kayo ieentertain kahit kelan. Diretso ignored lahat.
Kagabi, we were on a date and the whole time, bf (27M) was basically horny for me (27F), especially with the scent I wore that time. Sadly, my libido’s at an all time low these days, that not even reading AJ stories ain’t enough for me to touch myself.
I’ve been meaning to tell him about the way he treats me while having sex. And by that, I mean the level of giving that he does in terms of reaching my sexual satisfaction. He doesn’t foreplay me enough or even rub my clit til I cum (yes, I’m a clit girlie and I told him about it countless time but he never gets the memo.) Everytime I learn about new ways to enjoy sex as the female in the act, I always let him know pero ginagawa niya parin yung usual, less satisfying ways niya.
I’m a giver, and i do love satisfying my man, since he’s really a lover in the relationship. Kaya lang, I’ve recalled the many times na I’ve been giving him more blowjobs than him eating me out. Probably because I get conscious and refuse to be eaten, everytime pinagtatapat niya sakin how my bush gets in the way, or how he used to taste a bit of pee, or when he saw my vaginal discharges. Pakiramdam ko nun, he doesn’t initiate pussy eating for those reasons which made me self-conscious about my body 🥲.
I’m not sure if the struggle to orgasm is just me not being in the mood or namanhid na si kiffy kaka gamit ko ng toys kasi he’s busy a lot of times, and we can only do car sex mostly. I’ve also reached the point na sawa na akong makipag bembang sa loob ng kotse for all the typical reasons like masikip, masakit sa balakang and likod, etc. Saklap din if he doesn’t get me wet enough or doesn’t lube me down there, cause he thinks I’m “wet” na down there, when it’s just the natural wetness of my vaginal walls that made him mistake it as wetness from his doing, kaya mahapdi every penetration.
He often acts like he knows a woman’s body, when I’m the first and only woman he’s had sex with. Sometimes pakiramdam ko nagmamarunong lang siya about women’s satisfaction and think what he reads in human anatomy applies to me. Ilang beses ko nang diniretso sa kanya yung mga gusto ko or discoveries on what makes me feel good, only to let it fly over his head when we do it. Para bang wala lang yung inputs ko, and I’m pretty sure na di ako nagkulang sa communication.
Sobra din siyang insecure about his size, to which I assure him that it’s never an issue. Plus he’s girthy and curvy and has a well-defined tip. However, bihira lang niya akong iassure na my pussy is good enough, or idk, he barely talks about my pussy at all.
So while we’re in a round of hardfuck in his car (as always), he complained na nangawit na yung kamay niya kaka rub ng clit ko, and ngl it hurt me a bit, kasi sarap na sarap na ako nun and it made me feel like he’s not willing to put in the work to make me feel good. Back then, nung times na hinandjob ko siya at nangawit na yung buong forearm ko, di ako nag reklamo and prioritized his cumming.
Nung natapos na kami, I finally told him the bitter truth. Let’s just say he didn’t take it well, as he resorted to repeatedly saying “sorry” and promising to do better. Sinabi ko sa kanya na I can’t rely on my toys forever to feel good, kasi unfair yon sa kanya. We ran a bit of errands din before niya ako hinatid pauwi and he profusely apologized for not satisfying me enough.
Nakonsensya malala si jowa, he said he felt like he sexually assaulted me and he feels terrible as a partner that he didn’t respond to my needs and only prioritized his own pleasure. Naiyak nga siya when he dropped me off samin, before we bid farewell. He was genuinely sorry and promised to do better kasi he just wants my best interest kahit sa sex. Mabait siyang tao, he’s a gentle loving, loyal and caring boyfriend, palyado lang talaga sa area of sexual give and take.
Yun lang, naglalabas lang ng sama ng loob and salamat sa pagbasa kahit mahaba.