Living as a closeted trans person is so unbearbale

Came out to my family few days ago. They said shit like haha youre walking on the wrong path, its not real blah blah. I felt like i was being treated like some kinda sub human or doll they are controlling. It just felt dehumanizing. Not only that i fucking hate looking at my pics or myself in the mirror. My family doesn’t give a shit or take any of my problems seriously. Its just not only them but my peers too. I cannot help but to think about killing myself. I didnt ask to be born or anyone told them to have a third child ( me) anyway. They would had been lived much better living with their two daughters not some trans shit like me.