not sure where to go

hi! jae submission ends in 3 days and i can’t stop thinking. ok so i got raw 9 nett 7, and sure it’s good but i genuinely felt like Os were a fluke? my teachers said i should go to jc since im “good at studying” but i genuinely feel like i dont deserve the grades i got. i studied so little compared to many of my friends and i even watched 6 seasons of a show during O level month. a schoolmate even said “why dont you go jc? you barely tried for your grades lol.” to me🤣 it’s like i just got lucky. so really i dont trust the “good at studying” thing. i dont know if i should go to jc because i dont know if im actually a mugger like that… i was like a terrible slacker in sec sch for the entire sec 1-4 until i performed a miracle for Os. i have no idea if ill continue being lucky if i head into jc LOL (i wont slack anymore in jc lah obviously ill try my best)

okay so my options are either tj science stream or sp chemical engineering.

i genuinely dont know which to choose because i dont even mind either😭😭😭 like no matter what have to study what

to be honest i dont see any difference between jc and poly other than - tjc is super near me and sp is super far from me - i can probably be more slack in poly because jc is just crazy mugging - poly is 3 years while jc is 2 years

my teachers said i should go to jc because jc will give me a better english foundation if i want to do english/geog in uni. though to be completely honest i dont know what i want in uni yet. i could end up doing something science for all i know. why do i have to consider uni already when im only 16 hahaha

so. poly or jc? jc looks like the kind of life where i wont be able to go out with friends at all (or go to the 1 concert i want to attend) and ill just die at home mugging everyday. that’s what’s deterring me. i could just go poly and have a little more time to myself, as well as experience a system that is different from sec sch. tho ya it is quite far but lol my sec sch was already 1h away🤣

im really indecisive and super easily swayed so idk whats gg on anymore. i have 3 days to make my mind up and idk what to do.