What stop you from being a Villain when society forces you to be one.

I have thing feeling from a long time ago. For me my main reason would be my mother cause I don't her to feel like she gave birth to a demon.

But seeing watching all these bullshits and everything in life tells me to be the demon which I never wanted me.

Do you guys ever feels like this. what stops you from being so snd how you coupe with it ?