Idk

Death scares me as much as love does. What if I find the loml and have to lose him to unwilling death? What if I find the loml when I'm the most miserable and push him away? What if I'm left behind with all the what could have been thoughts if he was alive and fine? What if I never get over it? What if I yearn for something I never got to feel and never will? What if I lose the loml before I find him?