I want to leave my husband

But I can’t get myself to deal with the fall out of divorce. Everything from child custody (one 17 month old), divorce stigma, being single again (after 15 years, and knowing how shitty the dating pool is right now), plus the actual heart break.

I know I would actually miss him. It’s not like he cheated on me or anything it’s just that I don’t see myself being happy in this relationship because of my in laws. We don’t get along at all and I would be extremely happy never seeing them in my life while my husband is understandably very close to them.

He doesn’t put the space and boundaries that I need from them bcz we “don’t have space and boundaries from my side of the family.” (We do, they live in another country, but my husband bases this statement on the one month they visit every year)

I had another post here recently touching on the in laws issue and got some great advice but the more I think about it the more I want out, I just can’t get myself to do it cause of the fear.