Horse phase.

I have loved horses since I was 7. I didn't get one until I was 14 because my parents said that they thought I would outgrow the horse phase. I am now 15 and I have had my horse for a year. He is a very old horse(33) so I can't do much on him. I used to ride him quite alot but now I feel mean because he struggles. So now he just is in the paddock everyday.

I wanted to get a horse that could like canter and jump (my horse can't do that) like I thought I would do in my dreams. So I got my hopes up but I can't do mych with my horse. His is a very good beginner horse tho. I think I goy my hopes up yo much and now I can't do much.

Now I am kind of not as interested in horses anymore. Some days when I am not tierd I want to do stuff with horses (because I am still recovering from chronic fatigue). But usually I don't want to do anything. 2 of my friends have ridden since they were little and now they don't really like riding as much because they say it is to much work. I think we are more interested in clothes and boys now.

I was wondering how long little girls like 7 years old usually outgrow the horse phase because maybe I have just outgrown it. Maybe this is just a phase of not liking horses because I literally used to be obsessed.

I also have had chronic fatuige for a year so it was very hard and not enjoyable to ride because it was the most tiring thing ever! I just felt soso exhausted when riding and after so it was the worst part of the day. I was dead afterwards. I would cry and cry because it was terrible.

So maybe I just have some trauma from that and it brings back not enjoyable times and I don't want that to happen again. But I have no idea.

I used to really want anouther horse but now I'm not sure. I still would live one but I am worried I will loose interest like my other horse. I just need to know why I am not as interested in horses anymore first.

So there could be alot of reasons why this could be happening but maybe I am just outgrowing the "phase". Has this happened to anyone else.