gameplay too hard

Please dont be super critical. I find myself dying over and over again, had a game with almost 30 deaths and 2 kills. Im emberrased everytime i finish a game and im starting to regret purchasing this game. Every day im doubting more and more if i should even start up the game. Aim assist is absolutely usseles, not noticing anything from it at all and for a console player like me its quite a problem. Having trouble to hit far away targets and finding myself dying to some dude waiting in the tall grass for whatever reason, like he knew i was there. Trouble locating enemies, cant see them but they can see me, Out of everyone who's in front of me it needs to be me who dies every time. I Feel like im glowing like a bright light bulb on the battlefield.

I need help, not critism. I need tips and guides, i want to have fun, make kills, and be a good team-mate and player.

Edit: thank you all for help and advice, i will surely make use of them.