Contracted hsv1 as an 18 year old

I finally have come to terms with it. Im much older now but I contracted it from a hookup. It was my first time hooking up with someone from the internet. I had lost my virginity just 6 months before and I wanted to explore sex more. I met what would be a long term boyfriend and unknowingly spread it to him too. I broke up with him because I was ashamed he would break up with me if he ever found out. I woke up this morning with 2 sores and Im just sad for myself and that 18 year old girl. And that boy is now engaged to someone else.