I submitted a half-ass literature review, skipped class, and did nothing the rest of the week
Year, IDK two? Been at this since fall 2023. Had a mental breakdown basically over the summer, dropped my summer coarse and worked on an old Jeep instead. I have nine credits to show for all this in a 36 credit hour program. I could do this, but I feel mentally slowed down. I have depression and it's probably about as bad as it's ever been. I keep doing less and less, and I've even stopped reading (got my BA in English if that tells you anything). I live in filth and I'm unhappy. Therapy isn't doing anything for me. I can't believe I just have stopped giving a shit about all the opportunity I've been given. I mean fuck me, I have a free ride from work. Boss lets me leave for class, which I skipped this week. But all week I've just come home from the office and watched Youtube until I take some melatonin and do it all again the next day. I'm not sure if I want to just keep trying until I burn it all to the ground, quit and just work my dead-end office job, or (long shot here) wait for therapy to actually do something.