Hard time studying

I want study for the GMAT but I just can’t seem to find the motivation. I purchased Manhattan prep about a month ago and have yet to take any actionable steps. So much so I have barely opened the book. I have tried to create a schedule and was excited prior to purchasing the self study course from Manhattan prep but now I’m dreading this. I haven’t told anyone I’m studying for the GMAT. So I guess this is just me venting to strangers that I’m being a scumbag 🥲.