I thought everyone else was minimizing their parents too

I’ve opened this box. I can’t close it. Trying to make a list of everything I can remember. It’s 26 pages long. These are just the first week of memories! What if more are coming.

My husband doesn’t deserve this. Year 15, and another layer of my rotten onion has been peeled. I’ve never yelled at my child, I give him every bit of love and support. What if that one time I snapped at him has made me like my parents? I’m so angry inside, what if he will feel like i do one day .

I thought my mom was the good one and I had to protect her and take care of her. No, she is just as bad, but in a different cruel way. What is coming next. I miss just being catatonic sad. This is too many emotions to suddenly have.

They’re putting me on abilify because I can’t stop freaking out and having panic attacks. I know I have a good team but I want to peel them limb by limb until my rage has consumed us all